Dacanay,
What do you think or expect will happen after death? You seem very concerned with losing what you think matters when you die. I believe that all that matters will remain after death. There will be god and there will be love. Everything else will fall away, being no longer useful. Kind of like the wooden sticks that I used to learn arithematic as a small schoolgirl. Those sticks were a key tool in my math lessons, but once I learned the addition and subtraction I did not keep the sticks. They were mere tools of learning and once I learned my lessons, they ceased to be of value to me.
I believe that we have come to live our lives as physical beings so that we can learn (or remember) the true nature of god. In life we play and experiment with matter and energy, all the while learning about god and love. Then life expires and our souls return home to their source, where I'm hoping that each soul has an opportunity to reflect on this life experience and to harvest wisdom and understanding. For this reason, I'm able to see death as another important part of a good life. When my time comes I'll be ready. One way to stay ready is to live fully in the here and now so that I have no need for regret when it's time for this life to end. I expect death to be such an amazing and profound transition that everything I've created and enjoyed during my life will be quickly relinquished without a moment's hesitation or sadness.
Why do I believe all these things? Because of the reading and research I've done in which credible sources describe near death experiences which emphasize the experience of complete joy, unconditional love, deep compassion and great understanding. Also, there are some really good, reputable psychic mediums like Erin Pavlina (Steve's wife) who have shared a lot about life after death and what they say aligns with what I've read elsewhere.
You're probably wondering, "Well, what if they're wrong?" Then, I'll deal with that when I die. As it is, I'm 34 years old (exactly twice your age
) and wouldn't it be at least a little bit of a shame if I'd spent at least 17 years worrying about death when I could have been thoroughly enjoying life? I think so! And since most (none?) of us knows when we'll die, why not just choose to believe it will be OK and make the most of every moment you have to live?
I'm not even suggesting that you share in my beliefs about death. If you want to believe in purgatory, heaven, hell, fire, brimstone or anything else, that's totally up to you. My main point is that whatever you choose to believe, do what you can to live a life you can feel good about no matter when you die. Something tells me that whether someone is headed to a lake of fire for eternity or a big school/paradise in the clouds that the last thing they're going to be concerned about is the relatively mediocre "stuff" and accomplishments they created and accumulated while alive on earth. There's bigger fish to fry in the great scheme of things.