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Ceoarob · 06-03-2010, 02:53 AM

My Reflection on the Day.

WOW, this has been another crazy day. It doesn't matter which action is taken just that ACTION IS TAKEN. I'm really glad that I was able to do so much today. I think that in the past, I might have been expecting myself to do EVERYTHING at once....achieve ALL my goals, make millions of dollars, ect. all in one day, but I really am seeing that taking a step by step process to doing things is the way to get something as HUGE and MONUMENTAL as what I'm doing right now.

Yesterday, I had a lot of excitement and ideas bursting and that was expected, I usually start all my projects off that way. However, what I DIDN'T expect for me to do today was to actually follow through on day 2. I wouldn't say that my "motivation" increased per se, rather, my persistence increased probably about ten-fold and I just REALLY stepped up. I can say that I truly did. Even though the day isn't over yet, I'm not AS worried as I'd normally be because I know that I have the discipline to do what needs to be done. A couple of days ago, I didn't have this. I could barely get my lazy ass to get up and do something.

I was just living a passive life and HOPING in a wishy-washy way that things would be different. Honestly, back then, I didn't care if everything fell apart. I saw myself slowly pissing away my life - my time, my dreams, my ambitions, and I just didn't care about it. I was letting myself piss away destiny but still unsatisfied at everything.

I know that this sounds like I've "completely changed", but I wouldn't say that ALL my habits have changed, rather, I've just had a self-induced paradigm shift.

I've realize that *Action REALLY is the antidote to despair*.

Every task that I'm doing, it gets me more dead set on accomplishing my goals. Every "no" that I hear just gets me more obstinate that I WILL succeed in what I'm doing.

In life and from personal experience, whenever I hear the "No you *can't* do that" or "No, Alex don't* do that" - I SWEAR that there is a filter that separates everything into two different categories. Whenever I hear someone tell me "No" I either 1) Assess the situation for myself and ask myself "Is there a legitimate threat to my well being? or 2) Is this person just (unintentionally) trying to limit me?

Whenever I get 1, I usually (lol) cease and desist. But whenever I get 2, I literally want to prove the person wrong. It's not in an ego way to PROVE to others that I can, but rather so I can see for myself whether it can be done and IF it is a better way of living, even if slightly.

Today, my Dad called my goals a little "misguided", and I understand his reasoning for that and I completely respect him for it. I know that if he could see what I see and also feel into how strong my heart is, then he would understand a little bit why I'm doing what I'm doing. Yesterday, by setting the plan for myself, I literally did 90% of the work. All the guesswork is out of the picture, it's just me actually doing it.

I already know Who, What, When, Where, and Why. But the How keeps displaying itself WHEN and ONLY when I need it.

**"Whenever I need an answer, it will appear right when I need it. Not a Second later, not a second earlier.**

This is the type of trust that I have in the Universe, others, and myself which is why I'm not too worried about the "How". In my mind, I have a nice How planned out, but I'm open to whatever the Universe has. It probably has a MUCH better plan than mine! haha!

I discover the "How" by taking action and getting things done. I don't think I'll ever be done with my "tasks", but I'm always willing to keep going. I'm willing to do whatever it takes. I'm willing to go the extra mile, because I know that everything that I'm doing right now is for my purpose. It's something that I truly want to do.

I remember that I woke up last night around 3.30 AM and I was pretty alert and awake, but I was just COMPLETELY marveled at my ability to persist even if I didn't "want" to do something. If I KNEW that I had to do something, at this point in my life since everything is tied to my purpose, I DO it. I realize that not doing it means pain (usually very subtle), but it is pain because it is procrastination.

**Procrastination is the silent killer of success**

But I'm going to write just one more section, and it's about something I'm reluctant to openly acknowledge.

I have a fear that I'll stall out. Not necessarily get burned out, just Stall out. As in all of a sudden, I'm going, I'm going I'm going, and then I stop. It has happened because in the past, I feel that I have "Domino Habits" - meaning that when one falls, they ALL fall, it's only a matter of time. I'm afraid that one day I won't get up at 5 AM and that all will be lost or that all of a sudden I'll view the thing that I want the most in life right now with contempt and scorn.

What do I really have to say about it?

As long as I keep taking action, I'll be in good company. I've been cultivating the characteristic of self-discipline and Persistence. As long as I keep taking action, EVEN WHEN IT GETS HARD, I'll get to where I want to go.

"If you're going through hell, keep going" - Winston Churchill. Makes me smile, ha!

Domino Habits - Since 80% of success is just showing up, just make sure that I'm keeping my habits in check. Give my best, everyday, everytime. Don't hold back. I KNOW that there is more pain whenever you hold back on something. Whenever I've held back in my life, I've secretly lost. Personally, I would rather die doing something that I believe in (this), than I would living a life that I would consider to be a lie (I'll describe that more tomorrow). I've found something that means something to me. It's not just the destination...I'll get there sometime, I know....but it's the journey. It's the fun that I'm having learning. It's the people that I see in the SuperMarket. It's the friends that I have and get to see. It is the Family that I have that loves me to death. It's all the blessings that I've been given so far - a warm house, a soft bed, FOOD to eat. God, I'm so thankful for everything. You've granted me so much and I feel as if though I haven't even lived my life as much as I should.

Just the gift of being alive and getting to feel alive, being able to do something that I love, being able to work to a higher calling, being able to learn from life itself, being able to have the crazy experiences that I do....this ALONE is worth the price of admission. I thank you God.

Failure - if I don't get something done. Do you know what I'm going to do? I'm going to GET THE **** UP AND KEEP GOING. It doesn't matter how many times I stumble and fall, it matters about how many times I can get up. Fall down 7 times, get up 8.

Yesterday, for the first time in my life, I realized that I DO have choice over my actions. I have choice over my attitude and my focus. I might not be able to always control the world around me, but I AM able to control my inner world. I'm willing to do WHATEVER IT TAKES. And I promise myself right now....right here, right now, that I'm going to keep going no matter what.

That's all I have to say.

This is happening...

06-03-2010, 02:53 AM	#12 (permalink)
Ceoarob Senior Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 663	Day 2 - Reflection. My Reflection on the Day. WOW, this has been another crazy day. It doesn't matter which action is taken just that ACTION IS TAKEN. I'm really glad that I was able to do so much today. I think that in the past, I might have been expecting myself to do EVERYTHING at once....achieve ALL my goals, make millions of dollars, ect. all in one day, but I really am seeing that taking a step by step process to doing things is the way to get something as HUGE and MONUMENTAL as what I'm doing right now. Yesterday, I had a lot of excitement and ideas bursting and that was expected, I usually start all my projects off that way. However, what I DIDN'T expect for me to do today was to actually follow through on day 2. I wouldn't say that my "motivation" increased per se, rather, my persistence increased probably about ten-fold and I just REALLY stepped up. I can say that I truly did. Even though the day isn't over yet, I'm not AS worried as I'd normally be because I know that I have the discipline to do what needs to be done. A couple of days ago, I didn't have this. I could barely get my lazy ass to get up and do something. I was just living a passive life and HOPING in a wishy-washy way that things would be different. Honestly, back then, I didn't care if everything fell apart. I saw myself slowly pissing away my life - my time, my dreams, my ambitions, and I just didn't care about it. I was letting myself piss away destiny but still unsatisfied at everything. I know that this sounds like I've "completely changed", but I wouldn't say that ALL my habits have changed, rather, I've just had a self-induced paradigm shift. I've realize that Action REALLY is the antidote to despair. Every task that I'm doing, it gets me more dead set on accomplishing my goals. Every "no" that I hear just gets me more obstinate that I WILL succeed in what I'm doing. In life and from personal experience, whenever I hear the "No you can't do that" or "No, Alex don't* do that" - I SWEAR that there is a filter that separates everything into two different categories. Whenever I hear someone tell me "No" I either 1) Assess the situation for myself and ask myself "Is there a legitimate threat to my well being? or 2) Is this person just (unintentionally) trying to limit me? Whenever I get 1, I usually (lol) cease and desist. But whenever I get 2, I literally want to prove the person wrong. It's not in an ego way to PROVE to others that I can, but rather so I can see for myself whether it can be done and IF it is a better way of living, even if slightly. Today, my Dad called my goals a little "misguided", and I understand his reasoning for that and I completely respect him for it. I know that if he could see what I see and also feel into how strong my heart is, then he would understand a little bit why I'm doing what I'm doing. Yesterday, by setting the plan for myself, I literally did 90% of the work. All the guesswork is out of the picture, it's just me actually doing it. I already know Who, What, When, Where, and Why. But the How keeps displaying itself WHEN and ONLY when I need it. "Whenever I need an answer, it will appear right when I need it. Not a Second later, not a second earlier. This is the type of trust that I have in the Universe, others, and myself which is why I'm not too worried about the "How". In my mind, I have a nice How planned out, but I'm open to whatever the Universe has. It probably has a MUCH better plan than mine! haha! I discover the "How" by taking action and getting things done. I don't think I'll ever be done with my "tasks", but I'm always willing to keep going. I'm willing to do whatever it takes. I'm willing to go the extra mile, because I know that everything that I'm doing right now is for my purpose. It's something that I truly want to do. I remember that I woke up last night around 3.30 AM and I was pretty alert and awake, but I was just COMPLETELY marveled at my ability to persist even if I didn't "want" to do something. If I KNEW that I had to do something, at this point in my life since everything is tied to my purpose, I DO it. I realize that not doing it means pain (usually very subtle), but it is pain because it is procrastination. Procrastination is the silent killer of success But I'm going to write just one more section, and it's about something I'm reluctant to openly acknowledge. I have a fear that I'll stall out. Not necessarily get burned out, just Stall out. As in all of a sudden, I'm going, I'm going I'm going, and then I stop. It has happened because in the past, I feel that I have "Domino Habits" - meaning that when one falls, they ALL fall, it's only a matter of time. I'm afraid that one day I won't get up at 5 AM and that all will be lost or that all of a sudden I'll view the thing that I want the most in life right now with contempt and scorn. What do I really have to say about it? As long as I keep taking action, I'll be in good company. I've been cultivating the characteristic of self-discipline and Persistence. As long as I keep taking action, EVEN WHEN IT GETS HARD, I'll get to where I want to go. "If you're going through hell, keep going" - Winston Churchill. Makes me smile, ha! Domino Habits - Since 80% of success is just showing up, just make sure that I'm keeping my habits in check. Give my best, everyday, everytime. Don't hold back. I KNOW that there is more pain whenever you hold back on something. Whenever I've held back in my life, I've secretly lost. Personally, I would rather die doing something that I believe in (this), than I would living a life that I would consider to be a lie (I'll describe that more tomorrow). I've found something that means something to me. It's not just the destination...I'll get there sometime, I know....but it's the journey. It's the fun that I'm having learning. It's the people that I see in the SuperMarket. It's the friends that I have and get to see. It is the Family that I have that loves me to death. It's all the blessings that I've been given so far - a warm house, a soft bed, FOOD to eat. God, I'm so thankful for everything. You've granted me so much and I feel as if though I haven't even lived my life as much as I should. Just the gift of being alive and getting to feel alive, being able to do something that I love, being able to work to a higher calling, being able to learn from life itself, being able to have the crazy experiences that I do....this ALONE is worth the price of admission. I thank you God. Failure - if I don't get something done. Do you know what I'm going to do? I'm going to GET THE **** UP AND KEEP GOING. It doesn't matter how many times I stumble and fall, it matters about how many times I can get up. Fall down 7 times, get up 8. Yesterday, for the first time in my life, I realized that I DO have choice over my actions. I have choice over my attitude and my focus. I might not be able to always control the world around me, but I AM able to control my inner world. I'm willing to do WHATEVER IT TAKES. And I promise myself right now....right here, right now, that I'm going to keep going no matter what. That's all I have to say. This is happening...