Dacanay, I think that no matter how old a person is when she dies, for the most part it strikes her as an early age to be dying.
You are not alone in your fear of death. Of course it's scary, and we can all comfort each other in that fear of dying and losing everything we "have" and "have accomplished." Please remember, though: who your are is not what you have, and who you are is not what you have or have not accomplished. Who you are is not the goals you wish to reach, and you are not the children you have born already or have only dreamed about. Who you really are is not the scared thoughts.
Who you are is: Right Now. (and right now, and right now.) Who you are is: the consciousness that is aware that there's a you thinking the scared thoughts. The more you identify with the thoughts you have, worrried, happy, whatever, the tighter you hold onto them, they more you think the thoughts are who you are, and the more worried you get. That's why sometimes the richest and most "successful" people are the ones that are the most frightened of death -- they think they "are" their success, or their belongings, or their status. When will the be ready to let go of all that? When you will be ready? Don't get me wrong: you can have all the goals and success and property and status you wish for, but how free would you be if you realized that they don't make one iota of difference to who you ARE?
Some wonderful person posted here awhile ago: "Live like a dog." A dog is completely clear and unfettered by worry, because she's too busy living right here in the moment. "Fear" to her means immediate threat or intuitive drive to action (grrrrr...) Would living like a dog make a difference for you? I know it would for me.
Lots of love to you, and remember we're all in this together.
Angela
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