[JHL]

It would obviously be very frustrating for you to miss this opportunity that could get your film project up and running.

On the other hand losing your home would be more dire than feeling some transient frustration.

Sometimes risk is necessary to move forward, there's nothing wrong with that per se. To reconcile yourself with taking the "road less travelled", you might try playing the 'whats the worst that could happen' game. If you went and didn't get the backing you were hoping for - what is the worst that could happen regarding your living arangements AND are you prepared to deal with that?

If you can make peace with the worst-case scenario and are prepared to take responsibility for that outcome - then you should feel free to go. If however you would sincerely regret it and feel even more frustration and despair that things didnt work out - as well as have to find somewhere new to live, then perhaps this is not the right time.

There are never any certainties in life. It may be this is the one risk you DO need to take. Or not. I feel you have to try weigh up the pro's and con's rationally. But if that doesnt solve it, then you have to turn to your intuition.

Most of all, you must be confident in your ability to deal with any outcome. If you're ready for that, then you're ready for this risk.