Sometimes I feel when I'm feeling bad, that I want to feel that way. I sometimes like to feel sorry for myself, because its a paradigm I'm very comfortable with; the necessity for feeling bad. However, I definately don't feel good about it, as in the opposite of the feeling that is coming through. It feels nice, in an odd way. Then when I want to exit that phase, it takes a bit of short time, but it's quite easy really.
However, I would rather not I was in this paradigm. I'm gradually leaving it. I need to wait until I'm totally independant to do so (University). I don't think it would be fair to call yourself a psycho. You're different. Did you have a particularly hurtful childhood? Or even a particularly privelidged one? I think it's the nurture side of the coin here; your mindset here has arisen out of your experience. It is changeable, I can imagine, if you want to change it. Otherwise, there's nothing wrong as long as you feel good!
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