Yeah, I definately don't think it was my higher self.
Perhaps, its some cystalized manifestation of my own fear, that had become a sentient thoughtform?
The thing is though it has some ability to know things I am not aware of consciously.
Whatever it is though, The trend I initiated of rebelling against it has paid off in personal growth.
But for over 15 years, I relied on it for all major decisions, even day to day ones.
I had a bicamral brain in a sense.