Anyway, no call. Nothing. I'm torn. I was so ready to give it a go. I genuinely think if she put everything in to it like I am prepared to do, in this very moment, it would be a magnificent relationship. But I have nothing. I have a feeling she'll come back after Easter and then say she'll give it a go. Which begs the question, why not tell me that when you were away from me? It makes me feel like she's having her cake and eating it, then coming back to her hometown (where she gets very little male attention other than me, by the way) and having her cake there? Surely this decision to take me or leave me (I said that to her) should have been instant, if she truely still loves me? I'm not sure she does. And I don't want to be in a relationship like that. On the other hand, she always seems to have loved me on a different level that isn't so obvious. She can be very emotional if it seems like I'm going to leave her. This is the first time it's failed to gain a response. Maybe she just needs her space??
Please, someone help me. I'm considering ending the relationship, even though it's going to hurt us both. Does that make any sense? Thank you in advance. If you've read this fair, you may as well write even a line of help or it'll all be wasted!
Sean
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