You are quite welcome Erin.
I know you do readings for a living, so I don't want to get free information out of you, but do you think that is possible-to have a negative entity posing as a spirit guide?
I might pay to have you do a reading on this. From everything I read, our interactions and communications were in line with how spirit guides function.
I am not totally, whatever the term is for audio-voient. But I am very empathic. I worked out a code for "yes", based on a sensation, and a code for "no" based on another sensation.
It was kind of like Socrates, relationship with his deamon, except in Socrates case it was apparently only "No" answers.
So anyway, the doubts came from me meeting resistence to things I wanted to do from the spirit guide, and me going ahead and doing them any way and having them work out. Also the converse, listening to the guidence and meeting with disaster. I also observed an over all trend in my becoming dependant and not confident of my own judgement.
The most blantant examples, are meeting strong resistence against purchasing a canoe, and doing it anyway, and later through the canoe, having an exptremely positive, life changing spiritual experience.
The other blatant example, is this guide discouraging me from developing my artistic talent. I feel like "Who gave me this gift?"
You talk about the source. I think its from the Source. So who is this entity aligned with that would keep me from exercising this gift?
Also, I often find that when I am "in the flow" doing my artwork, I have had many other powerful spiritual experiences, similar to ones I had out in the wilderness, in the canoe. I had one recently, that I believe is the beginning of my awakening my kundilini energy.
When I do my artwork, I feel more myself, more alive. These are the things the canoe and the artwork have in common.
Its a problem I am always working on in the back of my mind, like a detective trying to solve a case. Meanwhile, I am becoming more and more guided by my basic desires and lust for life.
So its possible that negative entities are my guides, spurring me on to be stronger willed and more aggressive.
I am recently doing a trial exploring being a darkworker, maybe the dynamic of spirit guides is different with darkworkers?
I'd be curious to hear what you think, but I know you must have a busy life so if you don't respond I understand.
I'd also be curious to hear anyone elses impressions.