[persephonevii]

I keep having these dreams that I am lucid dreaming. Or I have these moments in dreams, where I consciously ask myself 'Should I do it like that?' or 'Is there a better way?', and I follow through with an answer and action, and then I slip back into dream mode.

In my most recent dream, I dreamt I was in the kitchen and the room started to shake/vibrate like ripples on water. I kept thinking to myself 'Is this supposed to happen?' and I came to the conclusion that no, this does not happen and I must be dreaming. Then I felt the feeling of waking up and I remembered what was told that sometimes when you first realise you are dreaming, you get all excited and wake up. But the thing was, I remained calm the entire time despite the rest of me just wanting to get up but I managed to stay asleep. It felt almost like a piece of programming. This happens, do this, that happens, do that. Like I was supposed to dream this.

The rest of my dream I went running around announcing I was lucid dreaming and doing all those lucid dreaming tricks, like magically turning on lightbulbs and jumping high. I tried to raise a carpet with my mind but I failed. But the thing is, I dreamt I was lucid dreaming giving me the sense of a false awakening. But in my dream, I was kept thinking 'Yes I am most defintely lucid dreaming'... but what does lucid dreaming feel like? How do you know you've hit the real thing instead of uncontrollably dreaming about it? And how does one go from dreaming about it to actually doing it? (And not being fooled by your own mind?)