bettyboo, i just wanted to say i'm glad you had a good day.
i'm a big girl (5'10", 200 lbs, curvy as hell) and for the longest time i didnt pay attention to fashion or how i looked or anything because first off, i thought it was shallow, and secondly, i thought i was too smart and fat to be pretty.
i had this dualism set up in my head -- smart or pretty? which one do you want to be? i knew i was never going to look like a girl in a magazine, which KILLED me on some level, because that's the only "pretty" i knew how to identify, so i went for smart instead. i would read fashion magazines and just hate my fat stomach and feel so despondent, it's no wonder i wore shapeless black clothes all the time.
but as time went on, i met some dear friends who helped me embrace my inner girliness. i mean, it wasnt even that hard, because just barely under the surface was someone who loves to wear interesting clothes, play with makeup, rock the best shoes, etc. i just needed the eensiest bit of encouragement.
sounds like maybe you are in the same boat?
i am here to encourage you! put down the "cosmo" and pick up your makeup brushes and try something crazy and new with your eyes. open the closet and put together an outfit you've never put together before. do you have any shoes you bought because they are beautiful, but never wore? wear them! it's not about money -- it's about having fun with your personal style.
something else that really impacted me was simply looking at other people and seeing the beauty in them. public transportation is great for this. i see grandmas, little girls, fashionistas, middle-aged moms, young hipsters -- such a HUGE variety of people who all look beautiful, without looking like they stepped from the pages of a magazine.
there's lots and lots of different kinds of beauty, and exploring them is fun! go play!
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