I'm the same, and I embraced my supposed "issues with Authority' years ago.
It's only people who want to have authority over you that will say YOU are the one with the issue...because you aren't letting them control you in some way...of course they don't like that.
Especially if you don't like it when they impose their will on you as though they know better. That's not an issue...that's a GOOD thing that you don't let people brow-beat you into submitting to their authority without questioning them IMO. Control freaks will always make the issue about you instead of looking at their own ****.
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Originally Posted by ellie  Gosh we sound very similar actually. Maybe some of my insights can help. I've done a lot what you have done and I'm also quite intuitive too. I am a graphic/web designer, but have done lots of things too and I too have issues with authority. But I just recently learnt to embrace it. I was always seeing the "authority issue" as a bad thing, that I was an anxious person and I had to embrace people with authority. But then I thought what if, that's because I am not meant to be actually directed by others and my brain and body is telling me, something? What if I am meant to be the only authority in my life? When I feel anxious and intimidated with people in authority, maybe it's because I am meant not to work with others, but rather find my own path. Well since I embraced that realisation I quickly got to work creating my own projects, that could evolve into my own business. And guess what happened? I found myself and what I love to do.
So to summarise:
This is what I think was happening with me, the reason I had an issue with authority is because I knew I could do it better, and so I didn't want to be directed by anyone, because basically my true potential would be lost, been controlled by others. I needed to be the authority figure in my own path and my body was trying to tell me this, hence the strong reaction to authority.
Basically now I am calling myself an artist, because I have complete control over my work. My work and creative ideas are not dictated by others and that's what works for me.  |