Programming
This sounds like a programming issue. You might have limiting beliefs programmed in the subconscious mind which prevent you from achieving your goals. It's like you're self-sabotaging as you continue to make the wrong conscious choices.
I second the advice of baby-stepping your way through a day. Set one goal and achieve it. Then set 1 or 2 goals tomorrow and achieve them. This builds self-confidence.
As for limiting beliefs those tend to arise when meditating or using a technique like EFT tapping. Sit quietly for a while and watch the cascade of thoughts pull you in a thousand directions. It can be maddening at first but if you stick with it sitting still is purifying. Your negative habits expose themselves rather quickly. As for EFT there are many websites and practitioners who can help in that arena.
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