Dear Dave, I'm sorry to hear about your situation, but on the other hand: it's an opportunity to get to know yourself better and if you're willing, to get out of depri land and enter that of the living. It takes a bit of time.
I remember my years of struggle with depression and anxiety as they were literally tiring but also straining on my family and partner. It was hard going. I was 17 and didn't know I had depression and the psychologist couldn't figure it out either (doh!
) so had to figure that one out for myself. I did visit a psychiatrist too but basically he was taking over the psychologist's work (I stopped seeing her, she had her own issues
). He was great.
Dave, hearing that you've been dealing with this for 3 years, it's time to get the medication going. It helps to get you back on your feet, and working out as suggested by the poster above is definitely great. Don't see it as failure, or doped stuff which makes you feel like a zombie or what not. It's for a while, not eternity ok. Eating is important too as it 'grounds' you and your body needs it, eventhough you might not feel like it. Eat veggies and carbo nutritional stuff anyway. Keep the fruit going. Even when it's smaller bites, better then nothing. Especially breakfast. Seeing a therapist is positive too, find one that you like and trust. Growing goes in spurts and things take time. There's no over night cure. Take my word for it.
I've been there and am now a healthy balanced succesful person. Often people who are depressed lack certain chemicals in their brain. You might like to visit your GP and discuss doing a test. It's no biggie. Excercise will improve the chemical balance and you will feel better in your body but also definitely in your mind.
Please share your growth with writing your posts on your progress. The fact you have shared your story to us means that you can either decide to help yourself or to keep on the muddly road to nowhere (it might lead somewhere but it's so gropy in the dark, why choose to stay there?). I hoped I could do it by myself too ('cure myself' etc) and in some ways I did. But other people can help you and sometimes you have to ask, especially if you're suffering from depression, anxiety and thoughts (yes had those nasty buggers too for a while. I reckon they are there because you're so off balance so anything can come in) Anyway, I feel I have a right to tell you the above as I have been through quite a few years of that stuff. No, it's not funny at all at the time, but you will get out of there. I did too. I've been healthy and bouncy for 100% since I was about 22. I'm 32 now.
All the best to you Dave and get yourself in gear. See the GP, discuss medication to balance the chemicals in your brain. Build yourself up and find people who are positive and who can support you emotionally. Big hug
All the best.