[DaveTyler]

I'm a 18 year old boy and I've been suffering from major depression, apathy, panic disorder and obsessive thoughts for almost 3 years straight now. Also I'm severely underweight(as I'm never hungry and my body refuses to gain weight) I bet this has something to do with my chronic fatigue.
In the beginning I held it back with constant smoking of cannabis, which really helped a little, but at the same time made it all worse.
Never seen a therapist as I dont want medication, is it possible to cure some of this without use of drugs?

Some days I am somewhat better for a few minutes, but I feel trapped in my thinking pattern, from constant depression and panic Ive drained all my energy to fight back and gain motivation.

I dont think Ive gone 1 day in the last 3 years without atleast being severely stressed and depressed atleast 50% of the time.
I know this isn't normal, but I don't think I'm manic, I just don't know anymore what to do.
I feel like everyday all Im really doing is trying so hard to find reasons to go on...
I dropped school, all I do is isolate myself in my room, rarely go out, and if I do, I just go into a nightmare of panic attacks and break down.

Is there any natural methods to turn this around and get my life back?

If someone got any inspiring stories on how they turned it all around in their life I'd love to hear those too.