[siamesesilk]

Matt,

I am speechless...yet I have so much to say regarding your post. I will write it all out. Let me also give you a huge cyber ((((HUG)))))). Thank you. The emotions have been taking over and I cried.

I was really wanting to call Erin for a reading, but I am having trouble getting to that point still. I am not sure why, but I will talk with Erin soon.

I had a Tarot card reading with a friend of mine in California, over the phone yesterday. She hasn't sent me the detailed email about it all yet, so I Thank You, as well, for doing a Tarot reading for me. I am going to respond to each section because this is so amazing to me. I have felt a bit of sorrow, but feel absolutely in bliss most of the time for various reasons.

...I thought I would pull some tarot cards and oracle cards with your situation in mind, asking for any information that I could put forward using the guidebooks, in order to help you on your path.....

First card I chose was the Tower - breaking out of restrictive relationships.
Second card was the Universe - finding the right partner, unconditional living love, reconciling, sexual union and fulfilment...

All three if these cards hold true. I should note my husband is the most loving, giving and respectful man to me. I love him with my whole heart. Our love is not perfect, but I don't seek perfection.

...I then chose a card from Doreen Virtues Archangel oracle deck, which was Relationship Harmony. The message on the card from Archangel Raguel read "We angels are opening the hearts of everyone involved. Arguments and conflicts are being resolved now."...

My friend and I had a continuing conflict that we could not communicate well with one another. We couldn't get out what we really wanted to say. Some of my thoughts these past weeks have gone through a forgiving process with him. I feel that he has forgiven me as well from all of the answers I have received.

...The additional message in the guidebook is "Your prayers for personal peace have been answered, and you are to be commended for your role in ushering peace into this situation. Visualize everyone involved (including yourself) being cooperative and open-minded, even if particular persons aren't usually this way. Trust the inner guidance you receive, and know the changes are sometimes uncomfortable but often necessary. Ask me to help with any aspects of relationships that need healing. Know that all relationships ultimately have blessings, growth lessons, and love at their core, even if appearances seem otherwise. Stay focused upon this truth as much as possible."...

I have been thinking of the life lessons I have learned with my husband and my friend. They are both very different lessons, but they were important for me to hear.

...I also pulled two cards from Doreen Virtue's Goddess oracle deck...

1. Dana - High-Priestess - "You have Divine knowledge that can help others through your spiritual teaching" Various meanings include: Honour your Divinity, be role model of peace, look for opportunities to teach, know that you are a leader....

I have been finding leader qualities in myself at different points of my life. I can remember distinct moments of leadership from myself. I know this, but I had stopped believing it for a long time. I am not vain about it. I also have been told that I am a very good teacher. One of my duties at work is to train coworkers. I also have taught many others to do many other things and enjoy doing so.

...2. Aphrodite - Inner Goddess - "Awaken the goddess within you through dance, self-care, and appreciating your divinity." Various meanings include: Take steps to heal your sexuality, enjoy being feminine, be receptive, and in relationships, allow your softer side to come forward, don't hide your femininity....

It was amazing that Dance was mentioned right away. I have always loved ballet and almost became a dancer growing up. I have been dancing lately and feel all of the benefits associated with it. Along with this, my femininity is all back. Hidden from several years of depression, insecurities and doubt. I have been feeling fantastic and when my friend and I were together, that is what he brought out in me. Beauty.

.... and another card from Tony Carmine Salerno's beautiful Universal Wisdom deck:

Lilac Mist: "Your life is always perfect; you are always at the right place at the right time...

My husband has said to me more than once, in anger (a very long time ago), your life is so perfect. Your life is so easy. I can assure that my life is not perfect or easy. He can see that now. But my life does feel like it's "right". Everything I have chosen to do and who to be with, I have felt was the "right" choice for me. I have learned lessons from everything I have experienced.

...Your guides and angels surround you at this very moment - stop and feel their presence. They offer you unconditional love and support and ask you to remember that you are an eternal flame, constantly radiating love even though you may not be aware of it. Stop the internal conflict created by your thoughts and let love be your focus....

Am not lying when I say this...A single clap of loud thunder sounded as I read that paragraph. That is went I took off to the bathroom crying at my office. The thunder has not sounded again.

...What you perceive to be a setback or failure is the Universe's way of guiding your life to bigger and better things. Let go of perceived past failures. A miracle will manifest when you truly love and accept that there is always a higher purpose to everything that happens or doesn't happen....

I truly believe this. When I started seeing 777's on March 31st. I wrote about it, and found Doreen Virtue's Angel Number's meaning for 777:

"The number I recieved today was 777. A phone number. I didn't answer it. I just stared at the number for as long as I could and made a wish. The first one since this whole spiritual journey began."

I love Doreen Virtue's Angel Number's meaning for 777:

"777- The angels applaud you and congratulate you. You’re on a spiritual roll. Keep up the good work and know that your dreams are coming true. This is an extremely positive sign and you can expect more miracles to occur."

It truely does feel like a miricle is taking place. I have been feeling lots of emotions this past month with my thoughts. but I do feel very happy.

...I would say that you are having these thoughts for a reason and perhaps, as I’m sure you have considered, this is an answer to your prayers for fulfilment, easing your soul mate into your life. You are receiving many signs from your angels, only when you are receptive to these signs do you begin to see them, which tells me you are doing very well in raising you consciousness, which also leads me to believe, with Dana the High-Priestess coming up in this reading, that you will be teacher for many others, and that is why you are going through this growth lesson now. Be open to change, and let your inner truth guide you.... It will be for the greatest good of all involved, it always is ...

I believe this to be true. Thank you.