Thread: Beating Bulimia
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Old 05-08-2010, 11:43 PM   #64 (permalink)
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Originally Posted by butterflyeffect View Post
I'm done with ice-cream and chocolate. Processed foods in general.

Its finally clicked, I was standing in Woolworths to buy I tub of ice-cream, the cold burning my fingers as I held it but there was no thrill, no excitement, I even tried to convince myself it would come as soon as I started eating it. No thrill, I just feel sick. I didn't finish it and I have thrown it away. I didn't even make it to half way. Its lost its appeal. I'd rather be flawed than fat. The only reason to keep buying the ice-creams, the chocolates and the other junk is because thats why I have always done.

I am scared. I can't hide behind the Eating Disorder anymore.

I would have done better, but I was sick.
I gave it my best shot and I'm proud of that.

If I get well then I will have to eat foods I hate.
Strange logic here, my family eats alot of meat and I find it very distressing to think about the animal and struggle on a physical level to process it. I'm letting go, I am moving to a primarily vegetarian diet. No more steaks or chicken legs, no more tears . I feel relieved.

I have made the moves to become more independant and I have adopted other soothing behaviors. Cleaning...lol when I feel anxious I clean things up. Makes me popular when I visit my friends. And knitting, scarf anyone? Lol.
The other day I had some raw ice-cream, and there's raw chocolate too.
Focus on eating all non processed foods and you may discover that you can eat the foods you love which are also nourishing for your body and wont make you gain weight ....
Before I went raw I didnt enjoy food. I was afraid of it!
Since going raw I love food again. i love making tasty nourishing dishes.
You dont need to go all raw, but not eating processed foods is a great idea

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