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Originally Posted by Andy Mills  My hole life I've tried to be posative. But eventually you can't take it any more. It hurts. You feel nothing. Other than your bottled up emotions that get filled day after day. Nobody loves you. You have nobody to lean on, nobody to love, nobody to hang out with. Nobody likes you. You cant make friends. You think you are normal but for some reason you cant be yourself at times. I dont know why. Some people take your kindness for weakness. Theres a hole in my heart. Ive been told I dont feel as though I am loved, but jesus always loves you. I have a hole in my heart. THey say Jesus is supposed to fill that hole. They say I will try to fill that hole with lovers, video games, or pornography. But Jesus cant help me. My father has foresaken me. When life shits on you enough times then you give up on looking for Jesus. God doesnt even love me? The hole in my heart is to big for Even jesus to fill anyways. What about the missing peices of my heart from my family not loving me, or not having any good friends, nobody to talk to. I don't trust to many people anyways. I am lonely. How am I supposed to survive without feeling loved. I dont feel loved? Why??? Is ther something wrong with me??? Sometimes I hate life. Im sick of everything. Sometimes i want to get up and leave my scheduled life. Go somewhere far. But then I realize Im not going to find anything. I have no place. The worlds exhistence would not change if I died. I think of suicide. I would never commit suicide. But I think what's the purpose. NOBODY LOVES YOU??? Ive loved others. Ive been loved. Ive been knocked down. I get back up. And I keep doing so. But sometimes I wonder whether or not to get back up. nobody loves me. I hate life! Is this just a phase? But nothing is going to change so I am miserable |
Well, Andy. I once knew someone who sounded a lot like you. In addition, he was recovering from schizophrenia. I did not know him that well, but when I knew he was in trouble, I offered friendship and a helping hand.
It went well for some time, but abruptly he cut himself off, disappeared and his last contact with me was an email where he told me not to contact him again and added that if he would no longer be checking this email account of his.
And that was that. I don't know where he is.
Looking back now, and from a LOA perspective, I think that I was unable to help him because he was thinking too many negative thoughts. He distrusted people and perceived his own circumstances as dark & bleak. Under such conditions, I could not continue to play any role in his life.
His thoughts shape his reality, and his thoughts left no space for someone like me to exist in his life.
I guess what I'm trying to tell you is that if you keep thinking thoughts like "Nobody loves me" and these thoughts are dominant for you, then by the Law of Attraction, your life will reflect those things. No one who might possibly love you will be able to enter your life, for your life, as always, is a perfect reflection of your thoughts.