hi Missy,
I sympathize. How can you proceed with school if you are not clear on your purpose? I suggest a simple exercise. Do this for a week, at least once a day or better yet, several times a day. You only need to spend a few minutes each time, but you can also spend longer.
Find a quiet spot where you can relax. Could be in bed before you fall asleep, or anywhere you can shut out the world and concentrate. Then relax into your body, call forth all your passion and ask to be shown your life-path. Let yourself really long for it. Allow all memories of moments when you were truly happy and contented to come to the surface. Review these memories lovingly and pour the feelings they bring up into the request for guidance. Throw your heart and soul into it. You may think of this as prayer if you like, but do not be passive about it. Think of it as active prayer--you are not just asking blindly for help, you are actively stirring the stuff of the universe.
Make a promise that when inarguable guidance shows up, you will act on it immediately. Put your ass on the line. During the rest of the day and night, when you are not doing this manifestation exercise, relax in the knowing that you are engaged in an important process of self-discovery. Watch for clues about your life purpose. They may come faster than you think or be hidden in plain sight. Quite likely there's something you have been doing or have been interested in all along which is your true path and you just need to find a way to make money doing it. Maybe you never knew that was possible. Maybe the thing needs to be seen from a different angle to be visible. Whatever it turns out to be should come as no surprise however. And remember that it's not binding. Most people nowadays have several careers during their lifetime--your life will probably be that way too.
Once you've identified a clue, pursue it. Give it your life-force energy by paying attention to it. Let it grow stronger. Your new life will form around you as you engage in this process. I would not be surprised to discover that after a week of this process you find yourself with some serious clarity. If you do it, let us know how it went.
blessings,
Mme Metaphysician  |