[siamesesilk]

I am going to try and Post this one more time. I have posted this in two seperate sections threads of this forum. If any of you have any insight or relation to what I have been experiencing, I would really love to hear your stories. Thank you for taking the time to read this, I'm sorry that's it's a bit long and detailed. Here it goes...


I have been doing a lot meditation and trying to connect to my higher self. I also have been experiencing some lucid dreaming lately. For the first time, I am having some thoughts of an old relationship with a friend. For some reason I have been having thoughts of him for the past three weeks, almost 24 hours a day. This has never happened to me before, but I really believe it. Some of the best moments are at 4:44 AM, 11:11 in the afternoon. Last night at 4:44AM I awoke suddenly thinking of him. Yesterday the car ahead of me for three miles had the licence plate --- 444. The day before that I hopped off the treadmill and it read 444 calories. When I try talking to my spirit guides or my higher self it doesn't feel like I'm giving back the answers, but then I look at the answers again and they seem to make some sense. I have been asking some very personal questions that I would feel bad of my husband knowing about as well, but I don't have any guilt whatsoever. It seems like it's okay that I'm asking. We are both currently married and live in separate states. I am not one to go against my values and I believe he isn't either.

It's not that suddenly I have started thinking of him after not thinking of him for the past several years. Those thoughts come and go, but this time is so different. More precise and focused. I should also mention that my husband and I are very close and as this more focused thinking started progressing I have attracted to me more of my husband's love. He even has joked to me about my having a "boyfriend". Completely joking, but I swear it has been showing in my physical appearance. I have received several compliments at work all week about how good my hair looks or my work has been outstanding this week. I'm telling you, it's been a wonderful "feel good" thing and that is why I haven't had guilt. But...

The the more pressing thoughts I have are when I recieve answers to my questions. I get very detailed answers to these questions. I have been focusing on LOA since I started watching the Secret last year. I have focused on goals and continue to work on them for myself. I need, for some reason to feel like these thoughts are valid. I believe them and I have faith, but I am realistic as well and not just a person with my head in the clouds. I hope there are others that are willing share something so deep because it has taken me so long to open up with this and work through my fear of it.

I have been reading the meanings of the numbers I have been recieving on any given day. A few days this week I have been recieveing 222, 333 and 555 and even one day this week 0000. The problem I have been finding is that there are many meanings for the numbers (there are many takes). I have been monitoring my thoughts very carefully as 111 suggests. I have to say, I am very pleased with what my thoughts have captured. This is the strange part. No guilt... I don't understand, but I feel like my higher self and his higher self are meeting. Does this make any sense to anyone?

Has anyone else has ever experienced this with another person you were once close with, but can't get in contact with them at the moment? If so, what happened in your future or have you not experienced that yet? I appreciate any thoughts. Thanks