If I'm conservative I feel repressed and if I'm free-spirited I feel like I'm not respectable. I feel tainted no matter what I do. It seems the only solution to this hell is to just accept all parts of myself.
I keep telling myself "just give up on the stripper thing, just try to live a normal life, pull yourself up by the bootstraps." But I'll see a beautiful stripper on the internet and the temptation comes back. I feel like if I don't do it I'll regret it but part of me loves conservatism and conservative values. I'm in hell.
Last edited by CroMagna; 05-05-2010 at 05:48 PM.
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