CroMagna - Sounds like you're going through a "dark night of the soul" type of experience, where we feel doubt/fear and want to become more accepting of all the different parts of ourself, including the polar opposites. Relax. Everyone goes through their own version of this. The more we can accept ourselves completely, all the different parts, the easier we can make decisions.
You are not going to make a "wrong" decision, and you can always make more decisions. Trust and listen to yourself. Life is like dining at a 5 star restaurant. Choose a dish - if you want something else, then make another choice.
I have a friend of mine from college that worked as a stripper, then became a model, and is now a mother of 2 children and teaches yoga. You can re-invent yourself as much as you like.
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