I'm glad what I wrote to you was helpful. I just realized that I never shared this with anyone. I was ill for a decade with this disorder but never really told anyone, maybe only hinted about it
I'm so thankful you let me share it with you especially if you can find it useful!
Originally Posted by butterflyeffect
My Eating Disorder wants me to be fat, ugly and unhealthy but the benifit would be that I stay safe from my anxiety and I can live in a cocoon. I think I'm scared to be healthy, to be well, to be pretty. That and I also put too much pressure on myself, I am never happy to be average, I always have to be the best
Yup, I know the feeling you describe here... Very familiar
I think for me what helped was the thought - how can I be of service today to the people I interact with- that way the focus is no longer on me. Maybe I can make someone smile today even if I'm not perfect