| | Watching Mama Mia
I watched Mamma Mia the musical last night on DVD. It was so well done and I could feel all the tension and anxiety vapourize from my body as I just wanted to dance and sing. I loved that all the characters were living on the beautiful greek Islands and truly living thier lives rather than sitting in therapy stewing over things.
I often get really upset if I think back to experiences that happened in Primary school and early high school where I was bullied alot. As part of learning to let go, I went back to my Primary school on the weekend and walked around. I was amazed at how small it was. All this time I had built it up in my head to be something different. I started to being able to let go. Also rather than hating the people who were mean to me, I notice that when I do bump into them in shopping centres and clubs, they are always nice to me, they have grown up and moved on. So why shouldn't I? Moreover, I realised that its all in the past, its just a memory, nothing to prove it really happened that way or was meant that way. It seems silly to let a memory ruin my hopes and dreams. Therefore I have been largely able to let go and I am feeling better, lighter and happier.
I am still struggling with wanting to over eat but largely the excess of the illness has gone. I no longer want to eat 2kg of chocolate or a huge ice-cream tub just a single chocolate bar or ice-cream. I think I still have a little way to go but I'm definatley over the worst of it now. : )