[demk]

Maybe you are growing out of your old way of being and the disruptions are as you enter a new stage.

Maybe this negativety is a call for you to go on a journey of self discovery as your current world no longer meets your expectations.

Maybe its the suffering we all feel that forces us to develop and mature.

Maybe its bodily changes as you grow physically that are affecting your concentration (I take it your a teenager).

Maybe there are some psychological issues that need to be dealt with.

Maybe you have just lost some confidnece due to certain experiences and you need to feel competent again.

Maybe there are many different things that are amiss that need to be rectified before you can function like you would most like to, and you need to learn and grow and piece all the different parts together and open up your life like a combination lock, one number after another.

I urge you to be open minded and go on a journey of self discovery and have faith that the answers will be out there. I can't tell you what is amiss from reading your post but I can tell you that through suffering comes growth and eventual happiness and fulfillment. I've been there with the motivation swings and there is always a way forward.

One good piece of universal advice is to "Follow Your Bliss" (Credit Josep Campbell). Do what makes you happy and you will be on a track that was set for you before you were born. You can literally negotiate your way through life by following your heart (but watch that your not just happy because you are avoiding stuff - It's complex but you will get there).

Also, incorporate daily practice into your life such as exercise, meditation, healthy eating, relaxation, reading etc. and keep up with it until you have really experienced the benefit (30 days +).

And, have faith because everything is going to be cool!!!