Originally Posted by Rockchick26
I do have some types of social anxiety, yeah. But working on a farm wouldn't be so different from working anywhere else, and I've done that before. I DO want to connect with people and make new friends. I just have wierd issues with talking on the phone, and people seeing me when I'm trying to do something private. I consider spiritual stuff private, like going for a walk or meditating at sunrise, I wouldn't want anyone seeing me only because I want to be alone with nature. I don't even like exercising with people. I just like going about my daily routine alone, but I want to share my interests and hobbies with groups of people. I like to keep the two worlds seperate.
I understand exactly what you are saying, because I do the same thing. I hate talking on the phone, I never pick up my phone, only after I read the answering machine, I don't like working with people, especially the looking over my shoulder thing. I hate, hate, hate it, but I have come to terms with it, it's just who I am, and I have to work with it, for me that means the active goal of working for myself as a artist/designer. You actually find a lot of entrepreneurs have these sort of traits, they need to come up with creative ways to work for themselves, because they don't work well in a normal 9-5 environment. I actually came across this site, and the video sums me up, and it might sum you up too...I found the site a bit fluffy, but it's nice to sort of connect with other people that are similar, and say "hey that's me" The Highly Sensitive Person's Online Guide to Creating Joyful Work
I think all of come back to this site to connect with you, because we all see a little of ourselves in you. Some of us may have been able to get a little ahead of you, so we want to help you to get up to the same point as ourselves.