Originally Posted by Indiana
You don't have to make a choice that will definitely 100 percent be what you do for the rest of your life. I've already had three different 'careers' in my working life, plus I spent time working in a cafe when I wasn't sure what I wanted to do next. And I'm contemplating/working on fourth/fifth career possibilities for the future.
Just start SOMETHING. You don't have to do it forever if it doesn't work out. All those different things I've done have turned out to be useful in some way. It's your inaction, your refusal to choose anything that doesn't seem perfect or perfectly simple that is the consistent factor behind your failure to get anywhere.
Yeah I know I can have many careers, but i'm just afraid out of the 20 things I want to try, what if it takes me many years to try 19 and then I never have time to try the 20th one and THAT'S the one I should have chosen first? I know this sounds silly to read it but that's the way my mind thinks, I hate it.
And I totally know my perfectionism is ruining everything, it probably ruined all my would-be relationships too, because I couldn't deal with their flaws and I felt like if I just waited, the perfect one would come along. Thats what I seem to be doing with my interests too. They all have flaws and I keep thinking well, I add more all the time, maybe the next one I discover will be the perfect one. I wish I could stop thinking that way because I know it's keeping me from everything. Wow I suddenly feel like I've only been living like 20% of my life.