[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by themaster

I hope it's not going to be that way at your parents house.. if that's where your going to end up in a few months

What I would do when I used to live there was wait until everyone was in bed or left the house. Well, not that I had a choice in waiting, that's just when it happened, after I was finally "alone" and everything was quiet. I wonder if this has to do with my introvertedness, because I literally feel frazzled if i'm around a lot of people and when I hop in my car to go home, I feel a really huge feeling of peace wash over me, like I finally am alone and I finally can do whatever I want now and it's quiet and peaceful. I read about this in a book about introversion so I am just assuming that's what it is because I fit the description to a T.

Yep, this actually works according to bashar.. I can give you his method for this if you want it's simple.. but given how hard it is for you to get everything else to work.. giving you another method you won't use/nor practice may be a waste of time

Well, I wouldn't say it's a waste of time, I would just say that I'm already overloaded with personal development things, I have the latest installment of the Realization System to read, I have that Creating Change In Your Life ebook to finish (it's 200 pages long so it will take a few weeks), I have a book I got from Amazon called Creating Your Best Life, I have all the Bashar mp3s to listen to, I have the rest of Tony Robbins' Personal Power program (I'm almost halfway through now), I'm sure I'm forgetting some...hopefully I'll get to some of these tonight after I get caught up in here! This forum takes up a few hours of my day (I'm not complaining, I love posting in here), I'm just saying I can't listen to anything or read anything while I'm in here and it seems like I'm always behind!

I'm also planning on giving "lost" a watch again.. when it's over.. (see if it can hold my interest)

Oh you should! It's the best show ever, I think. The series finale is only a month away, after it's over I plan on watching it all again because it will be a whole different experience seeing it when you know all the answers!

No, actually were perfect! Period! We are perfect!

Now, that might seem odd from your perspective.. but I assure you it's true.. we are a perfect act of creation and of ourselves.. sure there's room for improvement but we are perfect the way we are now..

If i'm perfect already right now, what would be my motivation to change? My higher self is obviously trying to get me on a different path (or I wouldn't be dissatisfied with this one), so if I'm so perfect why is it trying to change me? Why can't it just let my ego run the show, with all of it's limitations it's forcing on me? How can this be perfect? I'm not disagreeing with you here, I am just trying to figure out in what ways having my ego running my life is perfect.

You wanna know what I think?

(and this may not be the truth)

I think your in fear mode.. you've been there for a while.. and I think your letting your EGO run the show for you.. and because the EGO doesn't know how to be happy! (it just doesn't.. it's not in it's programming.. safe is in it's programming.. HAPPY is not)

Your stuck.. and so the best you can do is bide your time for the point where you will create your "magic key" (pill is the word you used) and unlock yourself.. but I think to unlock yourself is going to require more steps then your willing to take.. so it's like you dash out (dart around like a ninja) your about to grab that "key" to unlock yourself.. then you hear a noise someone is coming.. you dart back into the bushes.. and you do this day in day out.. doesn't matter if it's "abraham" "bashar" "alg" or whoever..

Your going to run to the bushes like a scarred animal every time because you love your misery! Or at least your EGO does.. it just won't take a chance of releasing you from your own chains..

This is just food for thought.. I could be wrong.. and I don't pretend to be right!

Of course I'm afraid, I won't argue with you there. I know I'm afraid of causing conflicts with my family (if I moved away), I'm afraid of being stuck and stranded somewhere with no one to help me (i'm talking about like if my car breaks down or if I run out of money to eat, not being stuck metaphorically ), I'm afraid of...well honestly those are the only two real fears I can identify right now, I mean it all boils down to those 2 things I think.