Originally Posted by Acting Like Godot
What you're not seeing is that even though you have not yet made a choice, you are already making a choice.
If you take 5 years to decide whether you want to move from Italy to Brazil, what's happening is that you are deciding to stay for at least 5 years in Italy.
Same thing with the rest of your life. For example, currently, you have decided:
(a) to stay unemployed
(b) to not write for eHow
(c) to not have a career
(d) to not see the doctor
(e) to not change your diet
(f) to not live on that organic farm
(g) to stagnate on your various interests
(h) to deal with your father in the way that you are dealing with your father
As long as you stay passive on those things and allow the status quo to remain, you are effectively deciding to stay committed to those decisions.
I'm tempted to go through each of those things and show you how I'm not choosing them. But I wonder if you would even accept them. Actually, I have to do this because I checked again and some of these I HAVE done.
I am applying for jobs every week, how is that choosing to remain unemployed? I even accepted a temporary part time job that I HATED because it was all I could get.
I did write for eHow, one article...but I felt I was not an expert in anything else. You are writing articles about how to do things, and after seeing all my posts in this forum, do you think I know how to do anything? (other than going to concerts, which is what my article was about). Everything else I know about, I am not an expert on.
And how can you see a doctor when you don't have insurance or money to pay out of pocket? I suppose I could check dating sites for men who are doctors and get them to date me and give me a free checkup
I HAVE changed my diet, 3 or 4 years ago I started incorporating healthier foods into my diet, actually the last 3 times I've been to the store I've bought all organic natural foods. I just said that I can't always afford to go grocery shopping so then I have to take what people give me. But as far as when I CAN go, what I CHOOSE to buy is 100% organic and healthy.
I haven't chosen not to do the organic farm thing yet, I'm still throwing around my options. It's always an option to do it anytime so until I choose to do something else instead, I haven't chosen not to do it. I actually can't do it right now anyway because in order to move out I have to give my 2 month notice.
As far as my interests, I am learning whatever I can without spending money I don't have. When I can, I will definately explore them further.
About my dad, again it comes down to the alternative having equal consequences as what I am currently choosing. As soon as one choice looks better, I'll take it.