Originally Posted by Angela
You ARE being controlled; someone DID install a program in your mind that has you automatically reacting, rather than freely choosing.
That someone was you.
For years here you have been speculating about finding something outside yourself that will effect change in yourself (in your negative habitual thought patterns) and there's always, every time, a "good" reason that it won't work. And you're right -- nothing outside yourself -- nothing that costs money, or that you have to hire someone for, or that someone will give you -- is going to make any significant difference.
The only one who can reprogram you is you. And it takes dynamic willingness -- not just this flimsy, wimpy ("but I really do WANT it!") wishing and hoping crap that you've been floomping around with for years, but actually choosing change, and being the cause of it in your life.
I don't see you doing that, though. I predict you will say, "I don't know HOW to choose change and be the cause of it in my life! I need to find something OUT THERE that will help me figure out how to choose!" (The Chicken Opera of Change.
Which is very much like standing in front of someone offering you either chocolate or vanilla ice cream, and your saying, "I don't know HOW to choose between chocolate and vanilla!!!
(the Chicken Opera of Ice Cream.)
You choose by choosing.
I understand your analogy, but choosing between chocolate or vanilla isn't even in the same league as choosing what career to do for the rest of your life. I don't even have problems choosing between what flavor ice cream I want!
Actually, I think the only outside thing that costs money that can help me is some type of holistic healing. I found a place the other day where you can get all kinds of stuff done (hypnosis, energy modalities, healing ceremonies) so I'm going to look into that. The people that have these things done say they changed their lives and made their problems just vanish.