[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by pyrogen

I'd say that the first thing that you need to fix is the money problem. If you're getting by on ramen, then I'd say that the money problem is your top priority and that kind of simplifies things for you.

That's why I've been focusing more on looking for a job and less on spiritual endeavors. If this were any other period in history I probably would have gotten something by now. It's a crappy time to be looking for work.

"What do I do with my life" and "fulfilling my dreamz" is higher up Maslow' s heirarchy of needs from "living on ramen".

Well, although I know getting a job is a higher priority than fullfilling my dreams, I didn't want to get stuck doing another dead end up or a job I didn't like. So I was using this time to search my soul and rediscover myself and actually do what I want to do. If I get sucked into working at another factory Lord knows I'll never be able to make myself leave (after all, I didn't the first time!) so I'm trying to not just "get a job" but "create a career" out of what I want to do the most. That's why I'm having this struggle because although I need money, I also need to fullfill my soul's desires that have been dormant my whole life until now. I feel like I'm at a fork in the road and it's now or never and I have to make the right choice now.

There's plenty of free training out there so that you can get better work and student aid will help with that which isn't free... but you have to look for it.

I do want to go to school, (I have a few classes already picked out I want to take someday before I die)...and I know I'd have to pay at least something, yes I'd get student loans and stuff but the odds are slim of me finding a job anytime soon and if I go into debt even more and not be able to pay on that, what then? How can they get your money if you don't have a job, they take your car! And if they take my car, I'd have no way to get a job. I'd basically end up like a teenager living with my mom with no vehicle and no money and no life. That to me is the ultimate worst case scenario that I'm trying to avoid.

Oh, I should clarify...I don't want a job in anything that is "in demand" or easy to get, all the things I want to do either don't pay at all or they pay very little or you have to be famous and/or extremely lucky to make a living at it. So that's why I'm afraid to go to school too because with what I want to do, you can't just go out there and apply, you have to know the right people, have the talent, or have been doing it for many years. Or they aren't even jobs at all, I just want to do them and figure out a way to make money doing them.