[themaster]

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

Well sure, I COULD have stopped what I was doing and tried the exercises for a minute or two, but I guess I have more of a one track mind when it comes to things I have to do...if I have to go out for dinner with people, my entire focus is on getting ready to leave and getting there on time. I wouldn't stop to take my garbage out any more than I would stop and do a meditation exercise. It's kinda contradictory how I say I multitask but then I can't squeeze little things in between the big things...but my multitasking is usually limited to my recreational activities, not major plans for the day centering around other people.

You can be defensive and say it any way you want..

But I know and you know.. if you’re a smoker and your going out to dinner.. you’re going to take that 5 minutes for that drag of a cigarette.. or if your body says it's thirsty you’re going to take that minute to drink water.. or if the phone rings etc. on and on..

You can make time for this.. just say "I will do my best to make time and remember during my ultra busy unemployed day"

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

But I HAVE tried manifesting small unimportant things before and never had any luck. Sure I can try it again now but my experience tells me this doesn't work so i'm kinda going at it half-heartedly, which I know is wrong but I can't help it.

Does experience dictate reality?

Going to throw out a small example for you all right.. let's take 2 people out there.. and there exactly identical (twins, if you will) but 1 is happy and 1 is very unhappy..

Both of them go for a weekend (alone to the very same hotel) both get nearly identical rooms..

1 comes away from that weekend thinking it was awesome.. I loved my room, I loved my shower, I met some really nice people, the town was great and wow what awesome things I bought via shopping..

1 comes away from that weekend thinking it was terrible.. I hated my room (smelled of mildew), I found dead cockroaches in my shower! , the manager was horrible to me as was that waitress! the town had nothing to offer me in total.. tourist trap! I bought some used deck of cards at the flea market.. there was just nothing good going on there.. had a terrible time!

Do you understand what I'm trying to say.. when I wrote these out!

Your attitude directly effects how reality is created for you.. no joke.. it may seem stupid and silly to say to you be delusionally happy!

But that can really help you.. really

Rockchick, if experience dictated reality.. every time we went to a certain hotel or bought this brand of computer or watched this movie (that everyone said was terrible) but that you thought was wonderful.. well, it'd be sucky here..

Each of us is a unique individual and every aspect of reality has something to offer us

So just cause you tried the LOA and it didn't work and you expect that it will work that way again.. well that idea isn't serving you..

My god.. did you watch this movie.. everyone said it was terrible.. obviously it turns out you like "Twilight: New Moon" the whole experience dictates reality model will be proved FALSE

Remember, rockchick you've already told me you manifested.. why can't you just say to yourself.. sometimes my manifestations have worked sometimes they haven't.. nothing wrong with that.. I'm going to keep trying..

I know you have glimpses of optimism in you.. rockchick.. let the optimist/positive person in you shine.. and by god.. stop making me write so many brilliant texts and practice some damn tools!

Here's what I'm going to do.. no response from me past this last one.. until you have a post in the "workout" thread showing you've WORKED out..

If I spend about a 1/2 to a hour of my time responding to you.. I can only guess you do as well.. where's the 1/2 hour or hour worth of actual spiritual change enabled?

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

I'm a bit confused (what else is new!?)...so this thing is going to be a real physical thing like a big room that creates all this stuff? It was a lot to read so I only skimmed certain parts.

You do ask some good questions though.. when you want too

No to clarify here's my understanding of how it might happen..

I integrate so much of my teachers/knowledge or light at my own pace that in a way I ascend (disappear) from the earth and land in a place where I can create in the now.. that's my educated guess what will happen.. I didn't say “it would”..

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

I am afraid to say it but today I didn't get any done either. I know you don't accept my excuses but they involve not being home for most of the day, cooking dinner for 1 hour, and arguing with my dad for half an hour. (Just when I said we have been getting along, THAT had to happen! ) And right now I'm still upset about that so I can't relax.

What you couldn't have tried grounding..? see if that relaxes you.. throw those emotions and thoughts down that hole?

Let me honest rockchick.. I'm about at the point where I think to get you to do things (spiritual) it's going to take a phone call.. like I as your coach have to sit there and watch you do the pushups.. and guess what I've stood up here and said I would do that.. I would sit on a phone call with you and do some "guided meditations" yes.. I would

But I've stated what I'm going to do.. no more "enabling" of this behavior (ignoring) till you have 1 post of things you tried on the workout thread..

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

I wouldn't care if people thought I was crazy if I was always positive...I actually have had people think i'm wierd because I was never in a bad mood at work, I was always smiling and friendly and I never got angry. But back to what you were saying...how do you pretend something works when it doesn't? I think this is the part I will have the most trouble with, looking at it as if it is giving me results. Because I don't know how to fool myself into thinking something is true when it isn't. Actually I don't believe LoA isn't true, I'm just saying my manifestations are not coming true.

I didn't say this was easy.. but I'm just telling you if you believe "everyone likes you" they will.. if you believe you’re a famous rockstar with 22 mansions.. you will create that.. as long as that's a belief..

How you get to that stage/belief.. don't ask me.. I believe myself to be a master at spiritual abilities and teachings.. how am I doing?

You can be a actor okay rockchick?

You were a child once.. you could pretend you were a "firefighter" a "actor" a "whatever" play the part.. walk around your soon to be vacant apartment and say "hello, rothchild my butler.. I'll take my tea in the study this evening " validate that you create in the now that your thoughts are real and it is possible to shift realities just like that <finger snap>

Just be easy on yourself.. be playful.. keyword here.. try and ask yourself in a situation.. what would a child do here? what would a child feel here?

Children don't let their dad yelling at them shake them up if there in their place.. there dad could tell them how bad they were dragging dirt into the house.. but in 2 minutes later there right back to playing "cops and robbers"

Originally Posted by Rockchick26

No, I don't like what I'm hearing, but I do like myself. I did exercises like that one when I bought this self esteem workbook a few years ago. I can't see this as a self esteem problem though. I often feel like I like myself more than most people like themselves. I just don't feel like that's related to my "unique challenges" I'm having. And I can like myself and still not be happy with my laziness and my indecisiveness and my social awkwardness, I like myself despite my flaws. Everyone has flaws anyway so it's stupid to not like yourself or anyone because of their flaws.

This is my simple understanding.. when you point out yours flaws..

You are saying "I don't like myself" and it's as simple as that.. if you could see it from my perspective this once.. you would see that a lot of the issues we have on the planet are all about "self love" and "self worth"