[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by themaster

The only reason you can't.. is cause you say you can't..

Well sure, I COULD have stopped what I was doing and tried the exercises for a minute or two, but I guess I have more of a one track mind when it comes to things I have to do...if I have to go out for dinner with people, my entire focus is on getting ready to leave and getting there on time. I wouldn't stop to take my garbage out any more than I would stop and do a meditation exercise. It's kinda contradictory how I say I multitask but then I can't squeeze little things in between the big things...but my multitasking is usually limited to my recreational activities, not major plans for the day centering around other people.

Okay, it's good to know you have manifestation experience.. what we want to focus on is things that are NOT important to you right now.. I'm sure you'd rather go for important.. (ask away if you want) but I think focus on things you believe you could have or not have and it "doesn't matter" would be fine for now..

But I HAVE tried manifesting small unimportant things before and never had any luck. Sure I can try it again now but my experience tells me this doesn't work so i'm kinda going at it half-heartedly, which I know is wrong but I can't help it.

This is the holodeck

Holodeck

I'm a bit confused ( what else is new!?)...so this thing is going to be a real physical thing like a big room that creates all this stuff? It was a lot to read so I only skimmed certain parts.

Ohh, indeed we should create you a co-creation thread.. I would like to know that you’re taking time out for spiritual "workouts" study first

I am afraid to say it but today I didn't get any done either. I know you don't accept my excuses but they involve not being home for most of the day, cooking dinner for 1 hour, and arguing with my dad for half an hour. (Just when I said we have been getting along, THAT had to happen! ) And right now I'm still upset about that so I can't relax.

Let's pretend that it always works for you.. even if that isn't true.. adopting the mindset of a positive person.. may mean some people will call you "crazy" Let e'm call you crazy.. after all who cares what they think!

I wouldn't care if people thought I was crazy if I was always positive...I actually have had people think i'm wierd because I was never in a bad mood at work, I was always smiling and friendly and I never got angry. But back to what you were saying...how do you pretend something works when it doesn't? I think this is the part I will have the most trouble with, looking at it as if it is giving me results. Because I don't know how to fool myself into thinking something is true when it isn't. Actually I don't believe LoA isn't true, I'm just saying my manifestations are not coming true.

Here's another exercise try to read and try to do.. go to the mirror.. and say I like me.. "say it 50 times" do your best to mean it.. because I know deep down.. you do like you! (and I'm not trying to say otherwise )

Stop rationalizing (hint here.. this is EGO) your behavior.. start becoming "spiritual" just say to yourself.. that everything you said above is the old you.. and like a caterpillar your changing into a butterfly..

I mean read the above statements back to yourself.. do you like what your hearing about yourself?

No, I don't like what I'm hearing, but I do like myself. I did exercises like that one when I bought this self esteem workbook a few years ago. I can't see this as a self esteem problem though. I often feel like I like myself more than most people like themselves. I just don't feel like that's related to my "unique challenges" I'm having. And I can like myself and still not be happy with my laziness and my indecisiveness and my social awkwardness, I like myself despite my flaws. Everyone has flaws anyway so it's stupid to not like yourself or anyone because of their flaws.