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Originally Posted by Michelle  My problem goes like this:
My confidence has increased a lot in the last couple years. So much, that I can now tolerate feeling just how incredibly insecure I am. I find this annoying. It actually feels like I am becoming more insecure, when indeed I realize I am becoming more confident.
Has anyone experienced this? |
Oh yes. Growth can certainly feel like you're taking one step forward and two steps back. The more aware and conscious you become, the more it becomes obvious all the things that you still have to, or want to, change.
But this is a good thing because you cannot change what you dont acknowledge, and it sounds like you've made the break-through of beginning to acknowledge and deal with your insecurities, which you previously were repressing.
So I think that what you're experiencing is perfectly normal, and to me its an indication that you're on the right track. Growth is process that has its difficult moments. It can sometimes feel like a rollercoaster of highs and lows. It sounds like at the moment you are in a place where have been confronted with the work that lies ahead for you and it feels like you've actually gone backwards. You havent, its really a sign that you're moving forward.
Growth is not meant to be easy - there would be no satisfaction in it if it was. And the realisation of ones own growth is the most satsifying feeling of all. So keep going. From what you describe, you're making real progress.