Hello Kafaria, I am not even going to pretend to understand what you and Blue Crane are talking about. Even if I tried to imagine I am quite certain I would not come close to the reality you live in.
Stories like yours make me realise how easy it is for most of us in the West to talk about things like awakening and law of attraction etc when the worst thing that's likely to happen to us on any particular day is being stuck in peak hour traffic for a couple of hours and then patting ourselves on the back for managing to remain calm and centered throughout the whole thing.
How much more difficult must it be for you to believe that your reality is your responsibility, your creation then for some of us who will never experience the sort of worry and fear you face.
Sadly I cannot offer you any advice but I do wish you to know that your courage is inspiring, at least to me. I trust that you will find your own awakening and that all those who come in contact with you will be the richer for it.  |