Here's the funny thing: when you manipulate people out of habit you're a slave to the manipulation. What looks like power on the outside is nothing more than a way to get your fix. If you do anything just to get a high it will bite you in the ass. The core you cares too much to not sabotage you.
There's two ways to deal with manipulation as far as I know:
1. Give it up completely.
2. Consciously utilize it when the situation calls for it.
Either approach requires self-knowledge as action and abstinence accomplish nothing on their own. KV, if you're zeroed in on what you can see, tap into what you feel.
You've got nothing to feel guilty about. No, what you've got here is an opportunity. Whatever made you write this will guide you on your way.
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