What is the aim of your thread? I'm just wondering whether you are telling us that you have just 'outgrown' your friends, or if it's just a boring period right now in your life?
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I know I see my own flaws and insecurities in her, but I don't know what to do about it.
I tried to think of things that are admirable about her, but I really could not think of anything. I don't admire anything about her. And she's never shown great loyalty, courage, etc.
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Does that mean that you do not see any admirable traits in yourself? (What you see in others you see in yourself and what annoyes you in others is something you have trouble with yourself.)
If she's your friend, how come you can't see anything admirable in her (nor in yourself)? She must be a godafwul person if you can't see anything to praise or appreciate, and I find that hard to believe. Loyalty, courage, independency and being nice seem to be very important to you.
If you're not satisfied with your friends, you're not satisfied with yourself. Sounds like you wish you were more independant, to be admired and liked, others who are loyal to you and to have courageous and fun people around you. You secretly wish you were more courageous and independant?
Basically it sounds to me that you are bored stiff and are annoyed other people are not exciting enough, including yourself. I'm sure it's a temporary stage and when you're in highschool friendships change every year anyway. If you're going to college, great! Nothing to worry about. Still, your writing to me comes accross as being quite depreciative and down.
What can you do about it: "take up the mirror, not the magnifying glass" (Susan Jeffers) All the best!