New challenge...
I did measurements this morning with my trainer and Im the same..not quite the result we were hoping for. I can see though all my anxiety manifested this result. One way or another the anxiety has to stop.
I am now practising sitting with my emotions. Its a rather strange process whereby instead of avoiding difficult feelings or getting overly involved in the feelings and becoming emotionally exhausted. Rather you just accept them, not get into why your angry, but say Im angry and sit down and keep taking deep breaths and become aware of your breath and avoid your mind until your in a position to explore the feelings without harming yourself. For example using food to numb emotions is harmful.
Also I have to start eating less. Thats something I never like to hear. I feel driven by two minds. One mind who wants to eat constantly and another who wishes to starve forever, rather than trying to conquer both minds I have decided to ignore them, accept their presence but follow the stability of my meal plan regardless of hunger or fullness. I can't really rely on my body to tell me accuaratley what it needs yet, I have distorted all the hormones and signals and need to get back into balance.
If anyone else is feeling overwhelmed and anxious with too much to do, I find taking five minutes and sitting in a quiet place and just breathing deeply very helpful.
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