Good morning fellow bloggers.
Easter is over!!! Ahh im so pleased. I survived it fairly well even the chocolate part! I did avoid the Easter egg eating tradition because my variation of it isn't that healthy..so I had a 17g freddo instead.
I have been practising deep breathing and meditation daily now. I am much more aware of my feelings and constant anxiety. I can feel alot of anxiety within my body that im trying to release.
Buttt the good news is im doing much better on the relationship front. Rather than being a voluntary Nunn dating a weird guy called Ed, I went out over the weekend and met new people!! Suprise, suprise, they actually liked me and even the security guard at the club was hitting on me, though he thought my name was Emma and I was from the States...LOl nope. Sorrry people but the Jury is still out on that one...
I am seeing my trainer tomorrow morning. Ahh Im nervous because its doom day, time for the monthly measurements. I can't use easter as an excuse but I have tried really hard this month and I hope it shows. Im more worried about the trainers reaction than my weight...geee he has the dictator thing down pat!! Diagnostically, im meant to be obsessed with it..
I have given up on focusing so much on my wieght and size. Been there, done that, thrown up on the postcard. Next! So instead Im focusing on what I do want, my hopes, dreams and goals. For example I really want to date David Beckam...but in the meantime I'll stick to ordinary people.
So if your reading this, wish me luck for tommorow. I'm going to need it. Im really nervous!!!! I know i should be able to tell visually if Im smaler or bigger but i really can't. I can put on or lose a significant amount of weight and not be able to tell visually, I have to rely on scales or clothes. I learnt that a few years ago, my perception can be a little off. In other words, don't ask me if you look fat in those jeans!
Much love to you all xxxx