Just a quick follow-up, kind of a happy ending at least for now.
Thanks to everyone for their help, especially Dharma for your long replies!
Today was a beautiful day in Boston, where I live. Really beautiful, first day of spring beautiful (although we keep having those and then it snows again and gets freezing!) and my mood was so good that I wore a white, spring-y skirt and a cute outfit when I went out to lunch with my boyfriend.
I am pretty sure it wasn't the outfit but my incredible mood.. I just felt carefree and glowing, that was the reason for this..but I think I broke a record for the number of guys I caught checking me out..lol. Not to be obnoxious.. I mean I've felt completely invisible and hardly ever notice guys looking at me for the past few months due to my self-esteem..but today was quite a phenomenon. Even my boyfriend asked wtf was going on.
Anyways, I hope I can keep this self-confidence.. it seems so much easier in gorgeous weather!
Thanks to everyone who replied..you guys are so kind.
Much Love,
"Betty Boo"