This is hard.
I just wanted to acknowledge that this journey is challening. I am a much stronger person for it though and I have been thinking back to who I was before I got sick and the person I am now and aside from the excess weight, Im better. I'm stronger, Im more truthful and open, less angry and confused. Yes its challenging, but its going to be so fantastic to look back in a year, two years or even ten years and say did I really think that? Oh dear and laugh.
Thank you everyone for your support and validation. Thank you to those people who have read but not commented.
Its really good to be heard, for this not to be a secret and to hear your advice.
I never knew who I was before I got sick, I clearly didn't while I was sick, but right now I think im starting to get a good idea. So thank you ed for teaching me and thank you to everyone else for helping me learn. YOu have my gratidue.