[searstower]

Ok, update time. It's been 13 days since I started PATHS, and 10 days since I upgraded to 8 modules. The modules I'm using now are:
Ultimate Body
Enhanced Sexual Pleasure ~ Female
Defying Gravity
Mood Elevation ~ Peace and Happiness
Increased Business Productivity & Creativity
Successful Living Phase 1
Stand Out at Work
Effective Communication in the Workplace

I've been feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance for the last 10 days that's started to clear up today. I haven't been doing much at all and have felt really blah most of the time, with bits and pieces of normalcy or emmense gratitude when I'm in social company (especially with my husband, which I think is no coincidence).

I've been sleeping more than normal and exercising a lot more than normal.

I've been keeping a journal separately from these posts with my expectations. Today I checked my expectations against my current results.

My journal, broken down my module

Ultimate Body (1.5 month goal)
-tight, perky butt that looks really great in slacks and jeans
-flat tummy, current pants are a little loose
-beautiful, moist scalp and healthy hair growing
-toned arms, can do 10 man-style pushups without rest
-thinner thighs, space between them all the way up even when sitting with ankles hip width apart
-balanced feeling in my body, all muscles are tensing pulling at the same rates on both sides of my body
-easily visible shoulder muscles
Results: I haven't measured myself or checked any of this in detail, but I have been consistently having sore muscles that have no reason to be sore, especially my back/shoulder muscles.
I'll be taking full body measurements soon so that I can have some clothes tailored for me, so I'll be posting that soon.
I have also been doing a lot more exercise than usual, including dragging Miguel out to the tennis courts last night. On our way home, he asked me why I wanted to play tennis, because apparently I usually don't.

Defying Gravity (1.5 month goal)
-soft, supple, moist skin
-cheeks as soft as a baby's bottom
-daily morning cleansing routine
-daily evening personal care routine
-flawless skin without makeup
-perky boobs, looks as if they grew a size
Results: Defying gravity
-excellent soft skin today, surprised me
-pimples. Hmm... That must be the Herxheimer reaction.
-I have suddenly developed a much more organized morning routine and have stuck to it 9 days out of the 10

Enhanced Pleasure (1-1.5 month goal)
-great sex
Results: Yes, it's working!

Mood ~ Peace and Happiness goal
-feeling as if I'm in an upward mood spiral
-manifest some feel good things into my life
-smiling more often
Results: -upward spiral? Maybe I should change that to upward diagonal. If this is a spiral, I'm spending too much time so close to the bottom.
-Yes, I have manifested some good things into my life recently. Free dinner, free lunch, great advice, free books, etc.
-I don't feel like I'm smiling more often, but Miguel says that I am


Successful Living - outcome goal
-a new attitude of gratitude
-it seems like I've got a ton of new successful, supportive habits
-feeling 100% comfortable with my choices - no regret, doubt or buyer's remorse
-more productive thought patterns
-master of true positivity
-confidence in my ability to achieve my goals
-complete, solid, undying faith that I can achieve anything I set my mind to
-dedication to my goals
Results: -I have been practicing gratitude much more often, but it has been on a conscious basis as far as I know
-ton of new successful habits? maybe
-I am comfortable with my purchase choice, but not quite comfortable with the other choices
-Positivity. The other day I asked my husband (he has no idea what I'm doing) if he's noticed any changes in me recently. I asked if I'm different. He said that I seem to be much more positive recently. My first reaction has been a positive one and that has helped a lot.
-the confidence has come and gone. Sometimes I feel very confident, sometimes I feel like I've been beating myself up all weekend.
-dedication to my goals? I can't tell


Effective communication in the workplace goal
-patience with boss and coworkers
-fix dysfunctional communication patterns
-never complain about boss
-gossip is a thing of the past
-big concepts can be accurately communicated with the intended message via email or web text
-able to somehow communicate with diplomacy and tact to boss
-feeling relaxed and serene at work
Results: -I've been patient, but still complaining and gossiping. My gossiping officemate is out for two weeks now though, so we'll see what happens when he gets back. I just may be able to turn this habit around in two weeks with the help of paths and a gratitude journal.
-I do feel relaxed at work, but I'm not getting much done.

Stand out at work goal
-increased drive
-recognized as outstanding contributor
-noticeable increase in productivity and focus level
-diplomacy
-team player
-finished project before boss asked it to be done
-helping coworkers on their projects
-become very valuable to coworkers for my help
-3 steps ahead of boss on my projects
-increased ability to prioritize
-actually *want* to do something at work
-have set some goals for working at this company
-have achieved those goals
-started projects that I haven't been asked to start
-proud of my work
-skills that translate over to my business
-drive to make sales and increase quality in my own business
-drive to train and improve lives and skills of my employees/contractors
-feeling comfortable managing people
-having web projects finished before the client asks
-have attracted employees with similar traits
Results: -I have been feeling a want to stand out, but haven't done much about it.
-I recognized myself as an outstanding contributor in coworker's orientation.
-Other bits haven't really materialized, at least not in a way that I can see yet
-I have seen one project that I could take on that Rick hasn't asked me to do, but needs to be done.
-may have attracted an employee with similar traits

Increased business productivity and creativity goal
-feel as if I've gotten more done in a week than I used to do in a month's time
-have 2 new producing income streams without depleting my energy or focus any more
-6 decent sized sales in one month
-motivated to finish tasks before the deadlines I have (or have set)
-intense focus when working
-confidence to start things that I don't know how they are going to turn out
-confidence to do things I usually wouldn't do
Results: -no
-don't think so
-nope
-focus? Nope
-nope
tough one

Ok, that's how I felt this morning on the way to work. But today, the Productivity and Stick Out at work ones really kicked in. Since my coworker is out, I've basically got all the workload to carry. It was a breeze, and I feel that I've gotten more done in the last 24 hours than in the previous whole week. Hurray!

Rebecca