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Originally Posted by wolfgang  What exaclty is the question to pose to motivation that clarifies what the polarity colour is?
Am I wanting to do this for the good of all or for the good of me? |
Yep, that seems like good questions. There's also, am I specifically doing this for somebody else in a loving manner (it doesn't have to be the whole world at once all the time) or for myself in an egoistical manner.
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Originally Posted by wolfgang What if I imagine preparing dinner as a darkworker? I'd probably create something that I specifically like and everyone else would be having to take whatever I created but hopefully some would also like what I created. How come that doesn't sound like a good thing to do. I'd be motivated to create something that I like to eat and not really be considering others I may be feeding - or not even create any for others. Or if I'm a more conscious darkworker I'd provide for them, but why if I'm supposedly polarized to feed myself as I wish for myself?
Likewise, if I prepare dinner as a lightworker: I would consider everyone else's desire, what they like to eat and is good for them create that and probably almost forget to put extra red onion in my salad - but I wouldn't forget that because in my model of a lightworker I would already know how to please myself and would still be doing that if I'm motivated to serve others. |
Beyond pleasing yourself, when you prepare something for yourself, try feeling love for your self, for your body. And gratitude. Think table-prayer, the gratitude for food, but maybe without the religious connotations. Just that feeling of gratitude, and love and compassion towards yourself, that is love-polarization too. Think of it as giving to your self, your person, your ego while you, not only the experiencer but the supplier of the feeling, is something beyond/above your ego. Find love in you for your self. Be lovingly caring about yourself and others. A more humble feeling, where the fear-polarized would have an arrogant feeling of self-importance.
The reason your dark example doesn't sound very good is because it's not very polarized and not very conscious. On the dark side... Think first completely about what you want to eat. You, you, you, nobody else. Then think about the others you would be feeding. What are they providing you with? What would be the negative consequences for you if you didn't provide for them? Then see what you can do to fulfill those two wants the best. Choose a meal that is tasty and good for you, and that they would approve of too, because they are a source of support, status and power. You might make making dinner feel like taking control of the situation, even the simple act of organizing ingredients. Think strongly of what you will gain at the end of it - good food and support. There is not much difference in work between creating a meal for one person and a meal for several, while the latter provides you with more as it also gives you *people*.
Creating dinner for a family is, I think, a very difficult thing to darkworker polarize, because families are not usually great sources of power. Hmm... think of a very influential family. Make them royal, or the children heirs to a business empire. Think of how they could contribute to your greatness if the spouse/partner was highly conscious, and if you raised the children to be highly conscious and contribute to your empire. There's something. Big goals. Then it would be very motivating to keep them in good health, both body and spirit.
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Originally Posted by wolfgang Have you actually felt this polarized thing or are you just thinking you got it and can explain it? |
I haven't chosen a polarization, but I have tried getting close using my imagination or doing transcendence emotional exercises to put myself in the state close to one pure polarization, and living with the feelings of being mainly motivated by one for a few days (1-3) at a time, then switching to the other and trying that. Not doing anything differently, other than what I read mostly, just thinking of my own importance or raising the emotions of love in myself, and thinking of big goals within that mindset. I feel absolutely great when I do this - that is personal experience. I can see glorious futures before me. I've become decent at jumping from one to the other without falling down the middle, but I can still see than when I'm in one polarization, the other polarization, which I haven't let go of until I'm polarized, is holding me back. And sometimes when I'm not focused, I muddle up the feelings and feel bad.
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Originally Posted by wolfgang So, in your mind, the most effecient way to feel really great and motivated is to colour that motivation with service to only yourself or to service of others? Or states of motivated are going to be more powerfull only if they have feelings of giving and service to others or only feelings of service to only self? And feelings of service to others with feelings of service to self make the motivation less powerful? |
Yes, in my mind and, I'd say, in my experience. I make it about the feelings of love or the feelings of power/importance. I work very much on an emotional level with this, as is obvious by now, because it simply wasn't as easy to get for me with thoughts formed with words, and not as easy to maintain with images and fantasies when I was not actively fantasizing.
Guilt is an example of mixing - you do not see everything as perfect and good, you do not accept everything, nor do you believe in your own greatness. You care about others, but haven't subscribed completely to love. You feel fear, without letting yourself move up the scale of fear to anger, willingness, self-respect and so on.