Hi Angela,
Sorry I missed your earlier post asking about what I meant by 'fighting it'. Over the years I have noticed that I tend to have a bit of a self-sabbotaging streak and this has popped up in one of the modules! I laugh about it, because at the moment, the module it is affecting isn't stressing me out.
Basically when I started the 'sheading pounds' module, I started to assist with improving my eating habits (including eating more regularly and when eating to choose healthy foods). What I was doing/actually am still doing (!) is choosing foods like pizza, maccas etc to eat AFTER I started this module. The crazy thing is that I don't usually eat or crave these foods at all!! And since starting this module eating what I consider 'bad' food has happened several times. I am not stressed about it, but I am aware of what is happening and why it is happening.
It is like I am proving to myself on a subconscious level that I can't do it...or that I don't deserve to eat well (using this particular example of the sheading pounds module).
It is a crazy feeling to be completely aware of my self-sabotaging habits...it is also a good thing, because - and this will sound strange - while I have started paths I have been able to question these tendencies more readily and distil them more quickly than in the past. For the most part I am aware of them, but they don't stick around anymore.
Many smiles!
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