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KittenHawk · 03-18-2010, 10:45 PM

Hi everybody. This is my first post. I'm a 20 year old sophomore in college and I'm having serious motivation issues.
In high school, I was valedictorian, did lab research, was super-involved, won a full ride to my school (a top-10 university)-- yes, that kid.
But I got here and seemed to lose my drive. I didn't become a party animal or anything like that, but just wasted a lot of time, content with getting a few B's, and got really caught up in looking good and impressing guys. I know this doesn't sound terrible. It's just that I find myself always resenting the work I have to do, even though I find the subjects interesting.
I want to have the same drive and self-discipline I had in high school. I've been thinking about why I used to be so motivated, and realized it was because I was totally focused on winning a scholarship for college-- the only way it would be financially possible for me. This really ambitious goal spurred me on. But now that I'm here, I don't have that anymore.
The dream I once had was of becoming a Rhodes scholar. I let that slide. But I want to pick it up again. I think it's what I need to motivate me. Even if I don't get it-- it can still inspire me, right? Is this too ambitious? What do I do next?

03-18-2010, 10:45 PM	#1 (permalink)
KittenHawk Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2010 Posts: 1	My ridiculously ambitious goal Hi everybody. This is my first post. I'm a 20 year old sophomore in college and I'm having serious motivation issues. In high school, I was valedictorian, did lab research, was super-involved, won a full ride to my school (a top-10 university)-- yes, that kid. But I got here and seemed to lose my drive. I didn't become a party animal or anything like that, but just wasted a lot of time, content with getting a few B's, and got really caught up in looking good and impressing guys. I know this doesn't sound terrible. It's just that I find myself always resenting the work I have to do, even though I find the subjects interesting. I want to have the same drive and self-discipline I had in high school. I've been thinking about why I used to be so motivated, and realized it was because I was totally focused on winning a scholarship for college-- the only way it would be financially possible for me. This really ambitious goal spurred me on. But now that I'm here, I don't have that anymore. The dream I once had was of becoming a Rhodes scholar. I let that slide. But I want to pick it up again. I think it's what I need to motivate me. Even if I don't get it-- it can still inspire me, right? Is this too ambitious? What do I do next?