Thank you to the three posters for taking the time to reply..I knew this was the right place to come =)
All were helpful but thanks so much Dharma for the monster post! Loved it! I know there is a ton of denial/conflicting feelings in myself..thanks for giving name to most of them.. the sad thing is, I could list 10 or 20 more denials I have, just about looks..lol.
I find that coming here is like speaking to my higher self (as Erin would call it)..things I know innately but I need to hear out loud.
Well I'm going to get started on your wonderful suggestions.. I will definitely let you know how it goes.
Another thing that helped me was something I read last night from Tolle's "Power of Now".. the part where it says that you are not your thoughts..and to "watch the thinker" so in my my case that meant paying attention to the voice in my head telling me that I'm not pretty enough, etc.. and realizing that my ego is not who I am.
Alright, and one more question.. this is a message board full of people who are spiritually inclined.. you don't find an inner conflict between material success (in this case, looking damn hot and taking the time to be) and spiritual peace? I didn't phrase that so well but hopefully you get the point..and if you did find this conflict, how did you work through it?
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