@Jeff: It sounds like you've never experienced the darkworker mindset from the inside. It's far from lonely and isolated. That's the picture commonly presented on TV, but the reality is rather different.
In my late teens when my behavior was extremely immoral, I had tons of fun, plenty of friends, and abundant social outlets. I was actually very happy. Even though people around me knew I was shoplifting daily, cheating in school, and plotting various schemes, they were drawn to my energy. Some even came along to watch, and people always wanted to know what I was up to. Rather than inducing people to fear or avoid me, it had just the opposite effect. People would question my morals, and then they'd turn around and invite me to grab a slice of pizza with them. No one, not even the most ethical or religious friends I knew, turned their backs on me.
However, I was taking too many risks in a way that wasn't sustainable, and that eventually led to a crash. But if I'd been more aware of what I was doing, even on that dark path I was on, it would have been possible to continue.
Maybe it's the same kind of mechanism that causes people to fall into abusive relationships. Certain people get drawn in by the abuser's energy, and they can't turn away from it, even though it seems logical to do so.
So rather than being lonely and isolated, my experience of the dark side was just the opposite. Even on the inside I didn't normally feel alone or depressed. What made me feel depressed back then was when I overdid it, got arrested too many times, and had to stop. But that was due to the poor outlet I chose rather than the nature of the dark path itself. As long as I kept the energy flowing, I felt great.
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