I wasn't trying to justify anything. But I thought it'd be helpful if you understood my gameplan, based on your question.
It's interesting to me that you mention not being able to afford it, in so many words. If that's an issue that you're worried about, you shouldn't do it.
When I started paths, my finances were extremely tight. My plan - and I expressed it to Aaron before I started - was that if the product worked as advertised, I should have no problem manifesting the money to reimburse myself the cost. And that's exactly what I did.