umm... are you in college? Will you be finishing school soon? If the latter, here's my suggestion:
Go to college, preferably somewhere far from home (and your mother). Don't call home more than once a week. Spend the first semester looking around and decide what you want to do with the next ten years of your life. Then spend the next three years learning whatever you have to in order to make life the way you want it.
Stay in touch with your brothers. Talk to them about their hopes and dreams, make sure that they know what they want and help them find out how to get it. In short, focus your energies. Your dad doesn;t seem to want your love, fine, don't give it to him. Save it for your brothers and maybe your mother (and for yourself). You seem to be getting a grip on your life. Make sure it stays that you.
Good Luck
and the Force will be with you.
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