Natasha,
What you are going through is perfectly natural.
It's called the 'terror barrier'.
A
very brief description.
A person's self image is built up in their subconscious mind by all of their beliefs and it is the subconscious self image that controls their habits and actions. e.g. A person who has a confident self image walks, talks, acts and dresses completely differently to someone with a poor self image.
These actions control your results. If you act like a loser you will be a loser, if you act like a winner you will be a winner.
You subconscious acts like an autopilot to keep you on track for the actions and results that it considers to be 'you'
When you start to behave in a way that does not match your self image, just like when a plane goes off course, your subconscious will kick in and try to push you back on track, it does this by influencing your emotions.
The most common of which is being uncomfortable and frightened, even when you can see no reason for it. What is frightened is your subconscious, it is frightened you are doing something dangerous by moving outside your comfort zone and it is trying to 'save' you.
When you come to the major turning point in shifting your self image you will come up against what I refferred to earlier, the Terror barrier. Your Subconscious will make you absolutely terrified by this new behaviour as it fights desperately to keep you on track. It is here that is the point of make or break. Where you probably are now.
You have two choices here:
Firstly to struggle through it and your subconscious will eventually give up and accept the new behaviour as 'you' and reset the autopilot. At this point you are set! Because now going back to your old behaviour becomes scary for you.
The second option is to give up and go back to your safe old behaviour and put your subconscious at rest. Well this is the choice most people make, and the reason most people realise less than 5% of their potential.
The best way to get through this is via visualisation.
This is because your subconscious can't actually tell the difference between reality and imagination. You can test this by imagining a painful, happy or sad time in the past - You get those feelings again don't you, even though you aren't there and aren't experiencing the event.
So start visualising yourself as a success as often as you can. The more you do this the more your subconscious will 'see' you as being a success.
I have been through it many times, sometimes it's big, sometimes small depends on how dramatic the change is. It's something you will need to face every time you stretch yourself. But when you understand that it's natural, but not real, fear it becomes easier to deal with, and it gets easier with time. But the rewards are worth it.
go to
Tapping.com - Tapping.com
It's a great way to relieve the fear.