 Crunch times??? Emergency Techniques?
I got laid off a year ago and have been diligently working towards developing an entertainment service for kids at schools and parties....but am still only getting about one booking (schools...I make about $100 a gig..) a week and am heading into a real crisis in the next few weeks........
I gave up an apt I had and have been house sitting since January hoping that the extra few months would make a difference in getting consistent bookings....and looking for some pt work, developing a few other ideas as well...
I only have a few more weeks...........just got off the phone with my exroommate who is teaching meditation in Thailand........and got a little good news..........have till mid April that I can stay where I'm staying vs April 1....the date I believed was the deadline when I started composing this.....so already a little miracle! (He was supposed to be in touch about 2 weeks ago so I've been sweating in out hoping for a little extra window..)
The bottom line is this.............I've done a ton of work already in promoting this idea I love and checking out all the other pt possibilities that might help stabilize my situation and I'm only getting a little trickle of results back......
I've been using manifestation techniques....focusing over and over again on ;what I want.....listening to cds, reading JV books etc etc....and I'm still facing the radically unpleasant possibility of being homeless in a few weeks...
I've been thru similar situations before and I keep reminding myself that each one ultimately worked out perfectly...........but each new situation presents a slightly different set of variables and hits all the fear buttons again....(I swore after I got back to my last job 5 years ago...an amazing set of perfect coincidences and timing, that I would never distrust God/the Universe again...but here I am!)
My biggest fear is that I'm feeling paralyzed around these issues and I can't focus as much as I think I should be focusing on taking actions steps that could be taken. I'm just plain overwhelmed every few days.......
Anybody got any special techniques they have used personally to get thru the last vortex/void before the "dawns"?  |